I was out to dinner with Jesse the other night. And I was feeling pretty good. I had a pretty dress on, I'd given some change to 2 guys at the parking ticket machine so they could get a ticket, we got seated right away, and I was really looking forward to the pulled pork burger I had just ordered. Then I started to overhear the conversation at the next table.
It was a group of 4 girls. After complaining that their fish was too fishy and their gin was too savoury, they started in on another girl. What got my attention is this 'She didn't even look skinny.' That started alarm bells in my head. That made me have to bite my tongue.
I assume they were talking about this girl wearing her wedding dress, because of all dresses you wear in your life, you want your wedding dress to make you look super skinny right? Because you can't possibly get married looking fat, right? Cue more tongue biting and eye rolling. Then, one of the lovely ladies even brought up a picture of the girl in question and started showing it around the table. 'Yeah, she doesn't look skinny at all!' 'Her ankles look fugly' REALLY LADIES? I UNDERSTAND YOU ARE ALL JEALOUS. SHE IS HAPPILY MARRIED AND YOU ARE ALL SITTING ROUND A TABLE COMPLAINING ABOUT FISH.
I didn't see the picture, but I don't need too. I'm sure she looked beautiful. And when I put on a wedding dress (hurry up Jesse) I won't look skinny either. I'll look fat. Because I am fat. And I'll look beautiful, because I am. I am safe in the knowledge that I will look beautiful, and that I don't need to look skinny. These girls must be so woefully insecure about their bodies, so much so they had to project these onto another girl, who wasn't even there.
I joyfully joked with the waiter that I could eat another burger, and that I might, if I was still hungry when I finished my chips, gaining me a few looks from the table in question. Because I am not, and do not, try to be anything other that what I am. Because I am happy with me as a person. I am a good person. I am kind, funny, beautiful, and I'll eat 2 burgers if I want to eat 2 burgers. And I won't even try to look skinny in my wedding dress, and ladies, if you wan to comment about how I don't look skinny, be my guest. I'm a giant reflecty thing, and all your comments reflect off me and back on to you. You'll be the ones left sitting at a table complaining about everything, while I, full and happy, saunter off down the road not even looking skinny in my dress.