Friday, 30 November 2012

Why I Chose To Love My Body, Instead Of Hate It

There has been some media coverage about the Fatshsion and plus size women lately. There was an article in The Times in the UK this week, an article in Women's Weekly Mag and the first female centerfold in this months Australian Cleo, is a plus sized model (I actually purchased a Cleo this month because of this. Something I haven't done in nearly 10 years, and obviously there is still a long way to go in the movement, I mean even though they have a plus size model, they still have an article titled the 10-second flat tummy tuck, and pages full of thin models). Over the last few months, my eyes have really been opened to changing the current beauty standards, about being healthy at every size and being happy with what you've got. And, since I started loving my body, and I quit dieting, I've never been happier.

Now, I’m not saying that people who diet are wrong, not at all, if it works for you, great! But, perfection does not exist  And perfection does not exist  because EVERYONE is beautiful. No matter what they body size, colour or sex. I’m not saying that being thin is wrong, I’m just saying that it’s not for me.

At the beginning of last year, I made a pact to myself that I was going to lose something ridiculous like 35 kilos. I developed what I now realise was a pretty bad eating disorder because of this. In hindsight, I now know that I was practically starving myself, and it would get to the point that I was so hungry, and depressed, that I would binge. I would eat until I made myself sick. Then the guilt spiral would start all over again. I’d feel guilty about eating so much food, that I would start starving myself again. Now, of course I never got anywhere being on a diet, because I like to eat. I like food. Since I've sworn on dieting, a lot has changed for me. I don’t feel guilty about eating. I eat what I want, when I want. And, because I don’t have this looming diet cloud over my head all the time saying ‘are you sure you want to eat that’ I don’t feel guilty. And because I don’t feel guilty, I don’t binge. I am actually eating better now, than I ever have. My view to food has changed, something switched for me. I used to eat as much bad stuff as I could, when I could (read: when I was on my own and no one could judge me) because I knew that I wasn't ‘allowed’ to eat it. Now, if I want fast food, I’ll eat it. That doesn't mean I eat it every day, I don’t, but if I’m on my way to work and I feel like a  sausage muffin, I’m going to stop and get one. I've even stopped having coffee every day. Not because I don’t like it, but because I don’t feel obligated to have one. I don’t feel obligated about anything regarding food any longer, and I’m much healthier, and better for it.

I've found a wonderful online community of body positive women. Women who have changed my view on life. Women who embrace what they have. Women who are fighting to be the change they want to see in the world. And this has been a monumental thing for me to discover. It’s changed my life.

Now, I've never really cared what people think of me as a person, but I certainly cared about what people thought about my body. I don’t anymore. I wore a bodycon skirt on Monday. And I rocked it. I’m wearing hemlines above the knee. I’m buying clothes that fit the body I have, instead of the body I used to want. And it’s fantastic to know that I can pull anything out of my wardrobe and know that it will fit me. I've purged every single ill-fitting item of clothing from my life. And it’s a wonderful feeling.




So, now I love my body. I love every wobble, and curve. Because no one, no one, should be made to feel like they aren't beautiful in the body they are in. Because self-love is so important. Because you CAN be healthy at ANY size. Because beauty standards should be changed.

And this is why I chose to love my body instead of hate it. 




Also, thanks to my dad for snapping these quick shots of me last night! This has become one of my new favorite outfits!

9 comments:

  1. This is a great post. I recently got to the point of swearing off dieting myself. I've been too embarassed to say so publicly since I'm not yet healthy, but you've inspired me. I was amazed how my perception changed and how freeing it was to get rid of all those "health" magazines. Now that it's been a few months though, I've noticed old habits die hard.

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    1. You shouldn't be embarrassed! Show everyone how kickass you are for doing what YOU want to do. Also, by declaring that you are doing something different, might help break those old habits?

      Thanks for stopping by! xx

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  2. Had the same/similar epiphany this year, and it has been one of the most liberating and positive things that has ever happened to me. As soon as I let go of this ideal me that never has been nor ever will be, I realised how many things in my life I'd been stopping myself from doing, telling myself "you can do _____ when you're thinner." There really isn't anything I have to wait to be thin for - I can go on holidays, I can get tattoos wherever I want, I can wear cute dresses. Fuck it. Life is good, man. Great blog, Lucy.

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    1. p.s. that plus sized centerfold in Cleo is Teer Wayde who is not only a stone cold fox but an amazing sweetheart. Add her on Facebook/Twitter/etc, she's awesome.

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    2. Thank you! Yes, I was doing the same 'I'm going to do this when I've lost weight' 'I'm going to do that' blah blah, wank. I can do everything and anything I want to do. Life is good! xx

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  3. Found you on the blog hop--adorable. (:

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  4. YEEEESSSS! Hell YEAH! Love this.

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